Homesick

I am so tired, and all I want to do is rest but i feel like my life is going to be non stop until the end of the semester. I feel like I'm so behind in so many of my friends' lives and it saddens me that I can't see them like I did this summer, every week multiple times a week. Not that I don't love school, but I just need home time with my friends where we can just laugh and hang out and not have to worry about this and that...I miss being carefree and laughing for hours on end because we could. However, God clearly wants me to get an education and I guess being "homesick" for them is part of this.

Lord, you formed me knowing what part of your plan I would complete. I will not accept defeat. For I am called, I am chosen.

I have to trust in this prayer, that God knew what he was doing when he put me here. Maybe I'm here to reach a girl that's in my small group, maybe I'm here to reach a girl that's in my sorority...but right now I really wish I was not here. I wish I was in Lexington at Don Juans with Jenny, Anna, Anna, Ashley, and Jordan eating dinner, talking about SYTYCD and deciding when during the week we were going to go to the pool. I don't think i've ever really been homesick, but right now I think I am. Maybe it's because I know if I make it through the week I will get to see three of the four of them, I don't know...but I need them a lot right now.

Also today is my Mawsie's 76th birthday and her first one without my pawsie in 60 + years...so if you're reading this say a little prayer for her. I wish I could go and visit her, but I know she knows how much I love her and much he loves her.