I am broken, I have no idea which road to take which option is my answer....
but God has given me peace, I know He is with me and guiding me along my decisions, my path, that I will take. I know He will not leave me, will always be there to talk to, and will hold me when I cry...
The other night of the phone my mom said, "Hannah instead of focus on what you may not or won't have focus on what you do have, think about Harrison."
Well, although Harrison is and has been a huge support, I have and will always have my heavenly Father. No matter how far I may stray, how bad I may hurt him, how lost and broken I am, I have a friend in my sweet sweet Jesus....
and that my friends gives me perfect peace.
Friday, January 21, 2011
Monday, January 17, 2011
Second best...
I have never been so hurt in my life. I have never felt a sharper knife in my back than that of the one that is in there now.
But I guess I always have been second best for some reason always put on the back burner.....
you have to lay in the bed you made and I have to lay in mine...
but the next time you're owed money or chewed out for no reason remember I gave you an out....
But I guess I always have been second best for some reason always put on the back burner.....
you have to lay in the bed you made and I have to lay in mine...
but the next time you're owed money or chewed out for no reason remember I gave you an out....
Saturday, January 1, 2011
It's a New Year
So I was inspired by my wonderful roommate to kind of do a blog rehasing the whole last year...
Last Winter, a kiss from lizzie brought in 2010. My birthday was a celebration as I escaped the teens and entered in to a new stage and then became four teeth less wise. The month was very anticlimatic but that seems to be a good thing these days...
The month of love. Valentine's day date with my parents' nothing could be better than that at the time. Relationships begin growing thanks to alpha delta pi. John Mayer playing his guitar especially for me.
Spring Break: sleep, friends from home, and relaxation...Alpha Delta Pi dominating air bands and taking the title! Exciting month!
Losing my dear sweet aunt, who fought cancer for three long, hard years. Not being warned of this loss, shock, devastation, brokenness over a loss that should not have happened so soon. The sting of death...
Rockbridge defined the month of May. The best experience of my life by far. Meeting with God, growing closer with him, being challenged by him, growing closer with my friends in Christ, forming relationships with people I never spoke to before this week...
Summer months, moving into my first "big girl" apartment, bridal showers, bachelorette parties, bridal party cookouts, dancing in my driveway and in the apartment, so you think you can dance, July 6--a day I will also be grateful for
August, the wedding of my first friend to marry the love of her life, beginning a relationship---scary, exciting, crazy, the start of my junior year, IV leadership retreat, meeting the girls in my small group that I have grown to love
Fall enters, I realize i'm in love, mallard ball, the death of my sweet pawsie...85 years of life, a servant to his country, a father, a grandfather, great grandfather, and great great grandfather, loss but comfort in knowing he is home
Halloween, the love square, the fair, fun times with friends and the boyfriend, a month of rebuilding after a loss, coming to terms with the loss
Guy's Night...planning since July the big Night arrived, no problems no misups just a group of 20 happy guys from Intervarsity, first thanksgiving with harrison, lexie saying my name, lizzie not running when harrison walks through my front door
Exams, beasting the semester, friends graduating and getting jobs, rest, sickness, love, Christmas cheer with no drama or arguments or fights, Christmas Eve with his family, seeing myself with him forever...
But it's a New year now, time for new adventures, new trials, new mountains to climb, new things to celebrate, here's to 2011....let's make this year mean something...
Last Winter, a kiss from lizzie brought in 2010. My birthday was a celebration as I escaped the teens and entered in to a new stage and then became four teeth less wise. The month was very anticlimatic but that seems to be a good thing these days...
The month of love. Valentine's day date with my parents' nothing could be better than that at the time. Relationships begin growing thanks to alpha delta pi. John Mayer playing his guitar especially for me.
Spring Break: sleep, friends from home, and relaxation...Alpha Delta Pi dominating air bands and taking the title! Exciting month!
Losing my dear sweet aunt, who fought cancer for three long, hard years. Not being warned of this loss, shock, devastation, brokenness over a loss that should not have happened so soon. The sting of death...
Rockbridge defined the month of May. The best experience of my life by far. Meeting with God, growing closer with him, being challenged by him, growing closer with my friends in Christ, forming relationships with people I never spoke to before this week...
Summer months, moving into my first "big girl" apartment, bridal showers, bachelorette parties, bridal party cookouts, dancing in my driveway and in the apartment, so you think you can dance, July 6--a day I will also be grateful for
August, the wedding of my first friend to marry the love of her life, beginning a relationship---scary, exciting, crazy, the start of my junior year, IV leadership retreat, meeting the girls in my small group that I have grown to love
Fall enters, I realize i'm in love, mallard ball, the death of my sweet pawsie...85 years of life, a servant to his country, a father, a grandfather, great grandfather, and great great grandfather, loss but comfort in knowing he is home
Halloween, the love square, the fair, fun times with friends and the boyfriend, a month of rebuilding after a loss, coming to terms with the loss
Guy's Night...planning since July the big Night arrived, no problems no misups just a group of 20 happy guys from Intervarsity, first thanksgiving with harrison, lexie saying my name, lizzie not running when harrison walks through my front door
Exams, beasting the semester, friends graduating and getting jobs, rest, sickness, love, Christmas cheer with no drama or arguments or fights, Christmas Eve with his family, seeing myself with him forever...
But it's a New year now, time for new adventures, new trials, new mountains to climb, new things to celebrate, here's to 2011....let's make this year mean something...
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