Perfect Peace

"And you'll never walk alone, and you'll never be in need, no I may not calm the storms around you, you can hide in Me."

This song is so beautiful (Perfect Peace by Laura Story)!

God,

Thank you for the numerous blessings you have given me. It is so humbling to me that you would love me so much to bless me with so many friends that are there for me whenever I may need them, an amazing family who loves me so unconditionally no matter how bad I screw up how stupid I am how down I am, they always know how to lift me up, for an amazing boyfriend who seems to really care about me and love me for me and not for someone who he thinks I am, for a wonderful school that lets me explore my dreams and that is so beautiful, for a wonderful campus ministry and small group where I feel I can really grow closer to you and get to know you better. God I know I get down, but please know that I am thankful for all of these things all the time and I know that I do not deserve any of them.

Thank you God. Thank you for being You. For being holy. For sending your Son. For saving me. For catching me when I fall. For listening to me when I cry. For holding me when I need rest. For loving me when i'm lonely. For smiling on me when I laugh.

Thank you for giving me perfect peace in you.

Homesick

I am so tired, and all I want to do is rest but i feel like my life is going to be non stop until the end of the semester. I feel like I'm so behind in so many of my friends' lives and it saddens me that I can't see them like I did this summer, every week multiple times a week. Not that I don't love school, but I just need home time with my friends where we can just laugh and hang out and not have to worry about this and that...I miss being carefree and laughing for hours on end because we could. However, God clearly wants me to get an education and I guess being "homesick" for them is part of this.

Lord, you formed me knowing what part of your plan I would complete. I will not accept defeat. For I am called, I am chosen.

I have to trust in this prayer, that God knew what he was doing when he put me here. Maybe I'm here to reach a girl that's in my small group, maybe I'm here to reach a girl that's in my sorority...but right now I really wish I was not here. I wish I was in Lexington at Don Juans with Jenny, Anna, Anna, Ashley, and Jordan eating dinner, talking about SYTYCD and deciding when during the week we were going to go to the pool. I don't think i've ever really been homesick, but right now I think I am. Maybe it's because I know if I make it through the week I will get to see three of the four of them, I don't know...but I need them a lot right now.

Also today is my Mawsie's 76th birthday and her first one without my pawsie in 60 + years...so if you're reading this say a little prayer for her. I wish I could go and visit her, but I know she knows how much I love her and much he loves her.